I don't quite understand what's going on..
A couple days ago I had someone pray for me, because for a long while I've been dealing with complete spiritual and emotional apathy. I haven't felt any shred of emotion or connection with God in a very long time. Unless you count lust as an emotion?
Anyway, they prayed for me, and prayed that there would be a sort of "flicker" in my spirit, to start to kick start itself back to life.
Shortly after that prayer I started to have a little bit of conversation with God. I said I was tired of trying things on my own, and I just wanted him to take me and make me what he wanted. I also gave up on being who I wanted, because I've felt very fake for a very long time. And almost overnight, I like a different style of clothes, I act differently, I'm interested in a different kind of music. All of this feels so natural now. Is this really who I was inside this whole time?
I have no idea what is happening, I feel very odd, and am not quite sure how to handle it.
I'm changing so drastically, so quickly...
I guess it's better to have this all figured out before the school year starts.
My first year in real school, I don't want to be a confused, lost kid anymore.
I don't know how to end this one.
The end.
(That worked)
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