I think it's "funny" how I can be so ready to give something up, and then God asks for a specific, and I'm like "uhh yeah, I'll get back to you on that." Am I the only one like this? Why would I want to hold on to something that's destroying me? Does it make me feel good? Does it make me feel safe? Again this is just one of the things that I don't have an exact answer to. Just something inside me is saying "nah, I think I'll hold on to that."
Maybe I keep things so I can have an excuse to keep messing up. So I don't have a clean slate to get dirty, it's still a bit dirty anyway!
Well, I've fought through those now. But it was just yesterday(litterally) that I was like "You can everything BUT that! How does that sound?"
Well, I don't really have a good way to end this one, just trying to figure out why I might try to hold on.
Does anyone else have the same problem?
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